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As a way getting to know oneself, to me, creating each piece of work feels like regaining a piece of myself, sometimes it seen so unrecognisable like a piece of puzzle. By constant producing, gradually each piece of work integrated the "me" as myself.
Once I was afraid of getting harmed in the relationships. I overreacted, for a while I disconnected from people and let the negative thoughts pile up. I trapped in the quicksand that formed in depression, the more I struggled to escape, the more I sunk down in it. When I felt detested toward my work of creation that I used to enjoy so much, I was in shock. Then I realised if I wanted to keep going forward, it was inevitable the confrontation to my demon: my-imperfect-self and the source of my deepest fear. I pinned down the causes of emotional negativity by recognising them in psychological theories and analysis. More than that, my works coherently recorded my transformation and re-identification. I came through those process to comprehend: the path to true happiness and the peace of mind is not to ignore and escape from one's own demon, but to be fearless and live in the moment.
I often don't know how to vocalise my ideas, I choose to express through my works of creation by my bare hands. To creat, is the media of communication between me and the rest of the world. My work combines two series, "Daily Record" represents what I have observed and the emotional feedbacks in day to day life. And the "Inner Observation" recorded my internal progress within this period of creation. |